In a raw, emotionally charged revelation that’s sure to rattle Summer House fans, Amanda Batula is saying out loud what many women only dare to whisper: the fear that the man she married may not be ready — or capable — of becoming the father she once dreamed of for her children.
“It’s not that I don’t want a baby,” Amanda began. “It’s that I’m terrified of bringing a baby into a marriage that already feels… uneven.”
“I Carry Us. And I’m Tired.”
For years, viewers have watched Amanda and Kyle Cooke ride a rollercoaster of love, betrayal, and messy reconciliations. From missed curfews to tequila-fueled tears, their relationship has never been without fireworks — but behind the party scenes, Amanda says the cracks have only deepened.
“There are days I feel like his wife, his mother, his therapist, and his assistant. But never his equal,” Amanda admitted, voice trembling. “And when I imagine adding a baby to that mix… it doesn’t feel like a family. It feels like a breakdown waiting to happen.”
Love Isn’t Always Enough
Amanda is quick to clarify — this isn’t about whether Kyle loves her. It’s about whether love alone can sustain the life she wants to build.
“He says he wants kids. He pictures this perfect little family. But he’s not the one waking up at 3 a.m. to think about doctor’s appointments, money, schooling. That mental load? It’s already crushing me. And we don’t even have a child yet.”
She pauses, then says quietly:
“I need more than love. I need partnership. Consistency. Accountability. And I don’t know if he even knows what that really means.”
A Question That Won’t Go Away
Amanda admits this isn’t a new thought — it’s a quiet fear she’s been carrying since before the wedding.
“I pushed it down. Told myself he’d grow into the role. But here we are, years later, and I still feel like I’m parenting him more than planning with him. And I’m supposed to believe that’ll magically change when a baby comes?”
Her voice cracks:
“I’ve already raised one man. I’m not doing it again.”
“I’m Not the Problem. I’m the Warning Bell.”
Amanda’s confession isn’t just a cry for help — it’s a wake-up call. Not just for Kyle, but for every woman who’s been told to settle, to wait, to hope a man will eventually become what they need.
“I’m not broken because I’m not ready for kids. I’m clear. I’m honest. I’m protecting the part of me that’s finally strong enough to say, ‘This isn’t enough.’”
What Comes Next?
Whether this leads to a breakthrough or a breaking point remains unclear — but Amanda is done pretending.
“I don’t want to drag someone into fatherhood just because we’ve been together forever. That’s not fair to me, to him, or to a child. I want a home where I feel safe, seen, supported. Until I have that… motherhood can wait.”
Because sometimes, the bravest thing a woman can do is not have a baby for a man she’s still waiting to meet at her level.
