Marshall Glaze Reveals He Nearly Ended His Life Following Love Is Blind: “The Pain Was Too Much to Carry”

Love Is Blind alum Marshall Glaze is opening up about his mental health struggle over the past year that led him to suicidal ideation.

The season 4 cast member appeared on Wednesday's episode of fellow Love Is Blind alum AD Smith's What's the Reality podcast to reveal how he hit rock bottom, and what ultimately inspired him to seek help.

"Last year was just very tough for me mentally, and I was going to take my own life," Marshall said. "It just got to a point where, I had always been morbidly curious, but never thought about how to do it. And then, one day, I’m just down in the dumps, just crazy depressed. I feel like nothing is going right for me in life, that’s what my internal monologue is telling me."

Marshall added that "those voices, that darkness just got a little bit louder, got a little bit darker," and he stopped ignoring it.

"I felt like I was in this box," he said. "It just felt like the walls were just getting closer and closer and closer, and nothing, no favorite meal, no favorite movie, no favorite song, could lift me out of that. I knew I had a problem when, this particular time I talked to my mom, I was okay with that being the last time I talked to her."

Marshall explained that he talks to his mother multiple times every day, so that's when he realized he had a major problem. "I was like, 'Okay, all right, this is bad,'" he remembered. "I was going to do what I felt like I had to do, but I couldn't."

The reality TV alum revealed that he went on a walk that ultimately saved his life.

"I will never forget this," he said. "Seattle is a very rainy city, and this was at peak rain season, and I lived on a very busy street in downtown Seattle, and at any time of the day, there's buses, cars, bikes, people walking, and nobody was out there. And I'm walking in the rain ... and I walked around the Space Needle, came around back to my apartment, and I was like, 'I want to live.'"

When AD responded that she was glad he went on that walk, he agreed. "So am I," he said.

Marshall made his reality TV debut on season 4 of Netflix's dating series Love Is Blind. He got engaged to Jackie Bonds in the pods, but their relationship crashed and burned when they took it to the real world. Jackie ultimately went back to another guy she dated in the pods, and refused to give the ring back to Marshall when they broke up.

"When we got back to Seattle, I felt like I was waiting for her to come around the entire time," Marshall previously told EW. "It was never a time that I felt like that we were in the same kind of relationship status that we were in the pods. How it ended was very abrupt, I will say that. Then really, just the fact that it never got to the point that I was expecting, that was also very hard for me."