Paige Admitted Concerns About Breaking up With Craig Months Before Split: "I Get Nervous

Summer House Season 9, Episode 10 picked back up with an anxiety-riddled Paige DeSorbo confiding in Ciara Miller about her crumbling relationship with Southern Charm's Craig Conover and having "no idea" if he was still her person as her career boomed.

"I feel guilty that I'm not more happy," Paige admitted in a confessional. "I wished for everything I have. I've literally manifested the apartment I live in, manifested having a boyfriend who's obsessed with me, I love my career. So, then, why am I the most anxious I've ever been in my entire life when I have everything I want?"

After expressing serious doubts about Craig — and even claiming she wanted to just "run away and change [her] name" — Paige told Ciara, as they chatted more in bed later, that her anxiety was hitting especially hard.

"Craig's gonna f–king kill me for that conversation," she said, to which Ciara responded, "Oh god, he's gonna hate me after it, too."

The Summer House duo's heart-to-heart resumed the next day, as Paige tearfully opened up more about feeling "overwhelmed" by her packed schedule and upcoming Giggly Squad podcast tour. "I feel like Craig's gonna, like, freak out on me," she said. "I'm just nervous Craig's gonna be like, 'You're such a f–king bitch.'"

She went on to acknowledge that her then-boyfriend's "feelings are valid too," though. "He can be like, 'Oh, you're so busy. What about me?' Like, I get that," Paige conceded, before confessing she felt like Craig "dumbs down" how busy she is or insinuates that she's a "bad person" if their relationship isn't "the number one thing in my life."

Paige DeSorbo worried about the potential fallout from her and Craig's split before they even broke up

As we now know, Paige eventually broke up with Craig shortly after Thanksgiving, but she was already stressing about "doing the wrong thing" and potential split fallout that summer. 

"I get nervous that me and Craig are gonna break up, and it's gonna be, like, 'Oh, he's so much better off without her.... She deserves what she gets. Blah, blah, blah,'" Paige explained. "I get nervous [that] everything I have will, like, go away. Like, I'll do something and ruin my whole life... I just don't say my feelings because I'm like, 'Oh, people are gonna think of me differently.' And it's just a lot."

An equally teary-eyed Ciara assured her friend that was not true, insisting that Paige's whole personality was not "being in a relationship with Craig."

In a confessional, Ciara elaborated, "Obviously, people love Paige and Craig. But I think that she, in the midst of all of it, forgot her success has nothing to do with Craig. And I, like, really want her to trust her gut. Take everyone out of it. What would you do if no one else was watching?"

Paige DeSorbo revealed an unseen conversation with Craig Conover

Later in the April 16 episode, Paige had a midweek meetup with Ciara and Amanda Batula in New York City and shared that Craig had just visited her during a stopover while en route back to Charleston from his brother's bachelor party in St. Thomas.

According to Paige, she and Craig had "the same conversation" as they did weeks earlier about busy schedules and prioritizing the relationship, as her then-boyfriend mapped out his own schedule for the coming fall.

"It sparked a whole conversation of, like, 'How long is it gonna be like this?'" she told the other women. "And I was just like, look, you're so valid in your feelings of being like, 'What's going on in our relationship?' But I think when you say that to me without saying, 'This is, like, a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity,' then I feel like you're disregarding it."

After expressing her need for "balance," Paige said Craig apologized to her: "He was like, 'You're right, I do that. I'm sorry if I am, like, downplaying it, but I do just, like, miss you and I wanna do things with you.' And I was like, 'Gross, disgusting.'"

All joking aside, Paige added in a confessional that she wanted to hit pause on the topic altogether.   

"Any, like, way that I'm feeling, I'll just deal with it after the tour. Like, I don't have the bandwidth to deal with my emotional problems right now," she said. "I have a job to do, and, like, once I complete that, then I'll deal with [whatever is] going on in my personal life. I almost wanna, like, forget any conversation I had with Ciara, forget that I felt like that, and be like, 'I was just being dramatic.'"

Now that the split has officially happened, though, don’t miss why Paige is "proud" she broke up with Craig, and find out her current relationship status, here.