“I’m Going Crazy”: Love Is Blind’s AD Smith Struggles With High-Risk Pregnancy Diet After Gestational Diabetes Warning

The glowing bump. The baby kicks. The promise of new life. That’s what people think of when they picture pregnancy.

But for Love Is Blind’s AD Smith, the reality is much darker — a daily war between her body and her mind, triggered by a diagnosis she never saw coming.

In an emotional and brutally honest confession, AD reveals she’s been labeled high-risk for gestational diabetes, and now faces a strict medical diet that has turned what should be a joyful experience into a waking nightmare.

“Every single thing I eat now feels like a threat,” she said, her voice shaking. “I’m terrified of hurting my baby — but I’m also slowly disappearing inside.”

“It’s Not Just Food Anymore — It’s Control, It’s Pain, It’s Isolation”

AD describes her new life as a prison made of restrictions: no sugar, no refined carbs, limited fruit, low sodium, no caffeine. It’s not just a diet — it’s a sentence.

“I can’t even look at a slice of bread without feeling guilt,” she said. “I’ve stopped going to brunches, baby showers, anything with food — because watching other people eat freely makes me feel like I’m being punished.”

What’s worse? The cravings don’t stop just because the rules exist.

“My body is screaming for comfort food, but I have to say no — every. single. time,” AD continued. “It’s like I’m watching my own life from the outside, like I’m not allowed to be part of the joy.”

“I’m Not Okay. And No One Talks About This Part.”

AD says the emotional toll is more than she ever could’ve prepared for. At a time when most expectant moms are glowing, she’s battling exhaustion, irritability, and depression — all fueled by hunger and fear.

“People think pregnancy cravings are cute. They’re not cute when you’re sobbing into your pillow at 2 a.m. because you would give anything — anything — for a bite of a cookie,” she said. “It sounds dramatic, but it’s real. And no one warned me.”

She also admits that the pressure to stay “strong” and “grateful” makes it even harder to speak up.

“I hate complaining. I know I’m lucky to be pregnant. But I also know that doesn’t mean I’m not allowed to feel like I’m breaking,” she whispered. “Because I am.”

Ollie Tries to Help — But Even Love Feels Heavy Right Now

Her fiancé, Ollie Sutherland, has been by her side through it all — learning the meal plans, cooking the same bland food, even skipping dessert in solidarity.

“He’s been amazing. He tries so hard,” AD said. “But even then, there are nights I just want to scream. Because he can go back to normal when this is over. I won’t. I’ll be a mom. I’ll still be healing. I’ll still be changed.”

She also shared that the couple has gotten into more arguments lately — not out of anger, but out of sheer emotional fatigue.

“I snapped at him for offering me a banana. A banana. And then I cried for an hour. That’s where I’m at.”

“This Is Me Fighting — Even If It Doesn’t Look Pretty”

Despite the pain, AD is determined to do whatever it takes to bring her baby into the world safely. But she’s also asking for honesty — and compassion — from those around her.

“This isn’t about willpower. This is about survival,” she said. “I’m doing this for my baby. But I need people to see me too. Because I’m still here — and I’m hurting.”

She ends with a plea many pregnant women will relate to, but few say out loud:

“Let’s stop pretending pregnancy is always beautiful. Because sometimes, it’s brutal. Sometimes, it tests everything you thought you knew about yourself. And right now… I’m just trying to survive it.”