Former “The Bachelor” star and “Dancing with the Stars” contestant Nick Viall and his wife, Natalie Joy, opened up in a new podcast episode about heartbreak they’re experiencing. The couple has one daughter, River Rose, and they revealed they just lost a pregnancy they had been very excited about.
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The couple shared their raw emotions about the situation throughout the podcast episode. However, they also talked about how they’re supporting each other. Viall even described what he saw as a “silver lining” in the middle of such a difficult situation.
At one point in the podcast, Viall noted there is something of a silver lining he can find with the situation. He explained he saw “The silver lining of just knowing you can get through stuff, even though you’re not through it yet, that is a much better feeling than wondering if you’ll ever get through something. So I am grateful for that. I am grateful that we have our River.”
Natalie Joy & Nick Viall Are Devastated by Their Pregnancy Loss
During the January 29 episode of “The Viall Files,” the couple talked about their loss. Joy began by sharing, “I don’t want to apologize for crying because it is so sad and I’m still feeling everything.” She also acknowledged, “I’ve been putting on this front. You know, I’ve been trying to be a good mom to River and come and do my job, whether it’s on the podcast or on social media for the past week.”
However, Joy continued, “Currently, as I sit here today, I’m actively miscarrying our second child.”
She said the miscarriage has been “the biggest heartbreak I think of my life. I’ve never experienced something where I feel so empty inside.”
“It’s going to take a long time to heal from this, but it is raw and we’re feeling it right now…my body feels so empty,” Joy added.
Joy took a moment to apologize to Viall. She noted she has to “be silly and goofy and funny and play” with the couple’s daughter River. However, she continued, “I have this overwhelming guilt that when I’m with you, I can’t also do that. I’m sad that the only version of me you get right now is this broken person.”
“I just feel dead inside, and it sucks because I have to be so alive for River,” Joy expressed. Viall tried to reassure his wife that he wanted her to feel what she needed to feel, and he had her back no matter what.
Viall Knows His Family Needs Him Despite His Heartbreak
In addition, Joy shared, that she feels “so tired” and is “exhausted of this performing…putting on a brave face and putting on a happy face.” She feels confused as she questions everything about why this happened.
Viall also admitted he has struggled with some tough questions. He mentioned the recent wildfires in California and wondered if they should have left town with the poor air quality. “That’s just me getting in my head about is there anything I could have done differently or we could have done differently,” he added.
He also shared, “I’ve never been more heartbroken or sad. But I know that I have a family that needs me. And it’s what gets me out of bed every day. And I’m grateful for that.”
Joy and Viall both admitted they were scared they would forget the love they had for this baby they lost. They promised one another they’d make sure they didn’t forget. Viall insisted this loss would only bring them closer to one another.
