Rachel Leviss Had ‘Shame Backpack’ at Rehab With Ariana Madix’s Photo Inside

Rachel Leviss continues to fill her podcast, Rachel Goes Rogue, with tidbits of information about her life post-Scandoval. It’s been eye-opening to hear the Vanderpump Rules alum take on everything that happened since her affair with Tom Sandoval was uncovered.

On her most recent episode, Rachel revealed some of the therapy she got during her time at The Meadows.

The VPR alum called the experience “kinda surreal”

Rachel spoke about one particular activity that helped her let go of the heavier feelings she had towards Ariana Madix.

“One of my individualized assignments was a shame backpack,” she explained. “Where basically, I was instructed to write down every mean thing that I could recall being thrown my way. All the insults, all the name calling, all the derogatory comments that I could remember.”

Then each paper was then turned into a book, and the assignment was to carry the weight of the words in a backpack for a week.

“It was very, very heavy,” Rachel said. Additionally, “And I was assigned to wear that backpack everywhere that I went for that week.”

“It did hurt my back,” she revealed. But the symbolism of the assignment was clear, Let go of the weight, or carry it at her personal expense.

“When I was processing through this assignment with my therapist, I had to read all of the comments, and then my therapist asked me if I wanted to take them on and to carry them with me for the rest of my life,” Rachel said. “I said, ‘No, I don’t.’ And I was instructed to tear up all of the pieces of paper.”

Rachel rejected the “shame” “spewed” on her

News of Scandoval reached inside the facility. Rachel revealed that a fellow resident found a newspaper headlining Scandoval. The former VPR star was pictured alongside Ariana, and that article made it into Rachel’s backpack of shame.

“I actually had this in my shame backpack, and it’s just so wild that it literally made its way into The Meadows [rehab facility],” she shared. “It was kinda surreal that this came into my possession that week of my assignment.”

Rachel concluded, “That taught me not to take on all of the hate, all of the shame that was being spewed onto me because life is much harder when you take that on.”